Fears

All of the people from our church who are going on summer mission trips had a training session this past Sunday. During the session, we were asked about our fears for our upcoming trips, and everyone had a hard time coming up with any. I try to trust in the Lord and give Him my anxieties. However, after talking with Charlotte Sunday night about my China trip, it was hard not to cry as she hugged my neck and told me how much she'll miss me when I'm gone! We were told that Satan doesn’t want us to go on this trip, and that he will present obstacles. I think this was one. I now have 2 fears to give over to the Lord: 1) how much it will hurt to miss her and not be able to connect over the 10 days I'm away, and 2) what if something happens to me, and I don’t make it home to her?

The next morning, God answered my prayer for help with one of these fears. Charlotte asked me if today were the day I leave for China. I told her no, and she argued with me, "But you said today you were going to China!" I asked if she wants Mommy to go, and she said yes, because she wants one of her grandmothers to come take care of her!!! I laughed as I told her that’s not very nice to tell Mommy you want her to leave, to which she said, “Oh, but you’ll be back soon, Mommy.” Out of the mouths of babes…